Priorities

So it has been a while since I have written anything.

I have the same excuse as everyone else "I've been too busy".
I keep meaning to make another instalment, do another brain dump, hell inspire some more people, but I haven't.
Its the thought that counts though, isn't it?

People use the I've been busy excuse on me all too often.
I have so many rebuttals to this argument, I don't even know where to begin.
How about my favourite?
"Everyone has the same amount of hours in the day, why are some people successful and some people aren't?"

This is so true.

It is about prioritising.

So if I am being truthful, Strong For A Girl blog hasn't been a priority.

My day job comes first.
People tell me it is easy for me to exercise because I work in a gym, but it isn't that simple.
I run a sales office.
This sales office is located in a gym.
I have been working, in that office, upward of 50 hours a week teaching my girls how to become baby salesmen.
I do not get paid to work out.
Some days the only time I see the gym is on the way too and from my office.
But......

I make time to train.
This has been higher on my priority list than Strong For A Girl blog.
It is an important stress release for me.
It keeps me mentally balanced.
The release of endorphins from the exercise makes me feel good, and as my job has a lot of pressure and stress (the customer is not always right, sometimes the customer is an arsehole) I need a way to channel this energy into something positive or I will be consumed by the negative energy.
All you have to do to see how important it is, is just ask my closest friends.
They will tell you I am not always very successful at doing this.
I need a work/ life balance.

So yes my social life has come next.

After my job, comes training and then my social life and I am still not writing another instalment in the Strong For A Girl blog.
I need to socialise, I need to spend time with people. People I like (the customer is not always right, sometimes the customer is an arsehole).
I admit, sometimes I am not very good at this.
I have always worked in industries that require a lot of contact with people.
Whether this was hairdressing, education or sales, my job has always required a lot of people skills.
Sometimes this means that in my spare time I don't want to talk to people.

ANY people.

I want to stop thinking, turn off the noise and just enjoy the silence.
But I also know this is not conducive to the positive mental energy I mentioned before.
therefore I have had to make this a priority and make a conscious effort to have a social life.
I thrive under pressure, enjoy the fast pace, I get shit done!
If it stops, I get lazy.

Which is something I am very guilty of when it comes to my social life.
I have been on a few dates recently.
For those who know me well know how big a deal this is for me.

I HATE DATING

I find it tedious at best.

I deal with new people on a daily basis, why would I want to spend my spare time getting to know someone?!
And what if we don't click?
That's a whole evening of my life I am never getting back!
So far no one has made it past the second date.
I love my job and my training.
to get me to chose something else over either of them, it has to be pretty fucking amazing.
So far no one has been "pretty fucking amazing".
And I am ok with that.

I have been hurt.
Right to my core.
I don't want to go rushing into anything again just for the sake of not being alone.

So I date.

A little.

So I have made it very clear how much I love my job.
I have just been asked to do something that combines two of my greatest loves.

Words and fitness.

I have just started to do some content writing for a supplements website.
So again, Strong For A Girl blog has been pushed back.

This new task is something I will be focusing a lot of time and energy on and I cant wait!
Writing has always been my place of solace.
It is the thing I do to collect my thoughts.

When I hit rock bottom after I was hurt by someone I love very much, I wrote.
I couldn't tell you what I wrote, I just typed and typed.
That's when the panic attacks stopped.

When my head was clear enough to write, it was clear enough to not attack me with anxiety any more.
So taking on a writing role makes me clearer and able to focus at a higher level.

I get shit done when I write.

Not just in writing article, I am generally more productive.
My thoughts organise themselves more clearly.
Writing articles about a topic I am passionate about makes me feel more calm and in control.
Despite this meaning I have less time to myself.

I get shit done.

Including writing this instalment of Strong For A Girl!
This whole article has come out particularly well formed.
There aren't a lot of scribbles on the page.
Yes I am old fashioned and use a pen and paper before typing it up.
I love the smell alright?!
And the texture.
You need to find things that make you happy and make them your top priorities.

My mum told me many times growing up "I don't care what you become as long as you are happy doing it".
I finally think I am coming to the point where it is all falling in to place.
Its only taken 31 years..... but I'm getting there......
Some people find their calling at a young age, some people never do.
Me? I don't know if I will ever have enough time or the inclination to do everything I want (remember, I am lazy by nature).
But my thoughts are clearer, and guess what??

Strong For A Girl gets some of my attention.

I am hoping this writing I will be doing will help inspire me to write these blogs for pleasure some more, but I do have to still keep my priorities straight.
I want to live a healthy life.
That means quality of life is important, so exercise now to maintain this for as long as possible is important to me.

I understand peoples priorities are all different.

For me my career comes first.
Other people are lucky enough to have families and this certainly should come first.
But exercise and a healthy lifestyle in general NEEDS to be a priority for everyone.
If you don't MAKE time now to maintain your health and fitness, you will have to MAKE time later for illness and injury.

I recently dealt with an arsehole, sorry customer, who told me his heart rate was up to 170bpm during exercise.
He told me he felt like he was having a heart attack.
To those who don't know, this is well within the healthy range for exercise especially taking into account his age (mid 30s).
He is a lawyer (which he told me repeatedly whilst trying to bully me in to refunding his money.... arsehole)
Does he spend his entire life sedentary at his desk?
Has he never felt his heart rate elevated and confused it with cardiac distress?
This left a lasting impression on me as to making time for things that need to be a priority.

Strong For A Girl, how I have missed you.
I think about you on a daily basis and I miss you!
I hope that this blog has brought us closer together again.
I hope that the writing I am doing is going to have me putting pen to paper for you again.
I have priorities.

And I want you to be one of them!

PS
For those of you who are interested, the website I will be writing for is Body Workshop Supplements.
Nothing is up as yet, but stay tuned.
I am hoping there will be a way to combine my own baby, Strong For A Girl, with my gorgeous new step child, Body Workshop Supplements, and create a happy, mutually beneficial, loving family.
Come join me on my new adventure

Bianca XXX